Reaching For My Happy

Let me begin by saying that writing down what pops into the nooks and crannies of my mind could at in one instant bring you to tears, giggles or just plain awe. I am a dreamer of dreams and a poet of the heart and find that being such I have much to say whether you want to hear it or not. Someone dear to me has inspired me to take to putting on paper the things make me tick. So Ladies and Gents put on your seat belts because this could be a wild and twisted ride.

I am a woman now in my late 40's and I am single. I have never done the dance of marriage but I do hold on to the hope of that moment in my future. I am a overly sensitive soul and find it hard to believe that my day will not come so...I put on a brave face and enjoy the travels and grow as I go. I,  like many people I know have had ups and downs and I can say personally though sometimes very painful the lessons have served me well. I hold on to hope. I refuse to give in to the never. I know that everything at least to me happens for a reason. 

I am currently in a relationship . It is new and fresh and green. It has been wonderful and I can't wait to see where it goes. I am scared and timid and overthink everything but I feel the call of romance even as I breathe. It is amazing to me how hard relationships can be and how people view themselves in the movies of life. Me? I believe in the good, honest, loving kind of happily ever after even though I know many who have not found this mystical and magical thing. I have never been more sure in my belief that it is possible and real. So I embrace the chances I am given. Each person has to decide to take baby steps or giant steps and leap in.

I've been hurt. I don't know anyone that has a heart that hasn't had it broken or bruised no less than a few times or many more. Should I give up? No certainly not for me. As I said I'm a dreamer and I hold stedfast to my imagination and I want to share my life with someone who can ride the tides and surf and waves of what if's and why nots? Success is only aquired if failure is not an option right? Love and Happiness are what make me tick. They warm me up and give me strength. I hope that as I continue on I will find my happy place where I feel I belong. For those of you out there who have not found the thing that you need to make your happy work for you, I do not have an answer how to help you find it. I just want to say to you....Open your heart to let's see what happens. You might find that it is in your crasp and all you need is to reach out and grab it.